Today is fucking beautiful and if you don't think so, you are an idiot! Um, why am I about to drink another cup of coffee today? So much time spent just walking in this lovely weather, taking in the sights of buildings and other people on the street, of used books, none of which were the ones I wanted, the books, I mean - of course, there were some, several people I wanted out there - but all these books and not the one I want, the ones I want to read. I saw someone about my age, young and hot in the East Village, and he was weird, told me I had to be quick and felt like something furtive, like something in the bathroom of Circuit City rather than someone's apartment. The encounter lasted less than ten minutes before he rushed me out of his apartment.

And I just talked with this guy on the phone about a job that I actually am considering taking. 60 percent thinking no, 40 percent thinking yes. It would be working at this retreat in the Berkshires for at least the next three months. I would be a potwasher, and room and board are provided and I get paid 65 a day, which is nothing, but if I am not spending any money at all, and I don't see where I would, it's awesome. I'd get to live in the Berkshires! But also sharing a bedroom with two other people, not so awesome! Washing pots not so awesome! But woods, and quiet, and not being here, all awesome sounding right now! I don't know what to do and I have to decide soon because training is April 7, so I need to tell him within a couple days, and uh uh uh, any thoughts (besides, of course, laying off the coffee)?